This documentary is serious garbage. Its about a guy who remembers an incident in which him and a lot of his other classmates gang up and basically taunt/spit at/hit one kid. The whole documentary goes through numerous classmates of that particular class. All the classmates speak on what they remember about the bullied student and what happened in that particular incident. Some remembered things others didnt. Some just remembered the student but not the particular incident. The whole thing was stupid as hell cuz the only time the victim actually shared his thoughts were to ask for a dvd of the film in which he was mentioned. Otherwise no communication with him occurs.
So anytime one of the interviewed class mates would say something about the victim I would think the classmate was just a fucking scum bag to the victim. I think the guy who made the documentary is a scumbag. His name is jay Rosenblat. He came off as a complete cunt along with everyone else involved. And I hope the subject of his documentary told him so. Cuz if it was me and my classmates contacted me for something like this thats what I would say to them.
I didnt like it because it made me think about my own
negative school experiences. I was never really jumped but I was
threatened a lot. And I was made fun of a lot. By both students and teachers. This movie made me
think of that. I could never relax in school. 8 hours a day of constantly being in fear of being a laughing stock. Trying to think 10 steps ahead on how to avoid potential torment. Getting tormented about something I didnt think to prepare for. It sucked and I couldnt wait to get out. I left the first second I could . Looking back on it was the equivalent of frantically trying to come up with get rich quick schemes on an almost daily basis. I could not focus on grades I couldnt eat properly. All I could think about was just getting a break for being made fun of. It got to a point where if I was in school I considered it the worst day of my life. Fuck all those cocksuckers. Here I am 20 years later and I will tell them all to their faces. But it fucked me up too. I try not to tell anyone anything about me cuz I dont want it used against me later. Women dont like being in relationships with anti social loners unfortunately. But my school experiences was the beginning of the end for me. Im antisocial cuz I dont like being made fun of. And these fuckers made me like that.
And all the people who would gang up on me together for the most part started being nice to me or indifferent. They would randomly try to chat with me and be friendly too. Which I thought was very weird. I was suspicious of it.
When I was
in 10th grade I saw some tarot cards on the floor. I picked them up and
looked at it. I put it back 2 seconds later where I found it. 2
minutes later some girl walked up to me and kicked me. And I go what your problem and she starts getting mad I touched her tarot cards. I had a grudge against her after that. Anyway 2 years later I was friendly and on relative good terms with her friends. But I rarely if ever spoke to her. In fact I dont remember ever initiating any kind of conversations with her. She one day out the blue asked me if I thought she was nice and I told her "No" laughed and walked off. And it was cuz of that tarot card incident. Even though I didnt tell her thats what it was. I should have told her that but I didnt think of it at the time. All I thought was shes a bitch and didnt realize why. In fact I didnt even realize the reason that I didnt think she was nice until a lot later.
Anyway it takes 2 to tango. Im not exactly mr.innocent in the whole thing cuz there is the above incident I just spoke about. As well as other things. I went to a combined junior high/high school. I got there in junior high. I tried to make friends with everyone and have everyone like me and got shit on. People apparently dont like people who try to make other people like them. The shit ended in the begining of 10th grade around november (the tarot card thing happened in september probably the 3rd or 4th day of school). November of 10th grade Thats when I stopped giving a fuck. Told anyone who at one point or another made fun of me to go fuck themselves. Or really everyone and started doing my own thing. I accept my own responsibility cuz at that point I could have focused on my grades which I regret not doing. As well other more positive things. So its as much my fault as much theres. I didnt like the mainstream anything that they liked and I would listen to underground music and have obscure hobbies. Basically I had nothing in common and I didnt want to have anything in common. In a way I rejected them but only after they rejected me.
Once I became an adult 18 and beyond. I tried to reinvent myself and put myself out there. And basically get over all those scumbag students and teachers (yes my teachers were instigators). But I basically just ended up meeting more and more scumbags who were as bad or worse. Ive thrown in the towel for the most part and I am lot happier. Most people are mainstream assholes who cant think for themselves and do whatever society tells them to and like what they are told to like. But on the flipside you should give everyone a chance which I do. There still might be hope for me. I hope so. I just want to find a woman who is nice to me and get married.
I read all the time stories on reddit and whatnot. People who befriend their ex-bullies on facebook or some other social media platform. Asking them why the torment. The bully would either reply with an apology or deny any responsibility. I never understood this. There is no why. Cuz the people that bully you are shit. If they ask for forgiveness tell them go fuck their dead great grandmother. Get nasty cuz most likely its on the internet anyway lol. People here are way nastier then in real life cuz of no physical retaliation. But I digress. In all fairness I know a lot of people that went through way worse shit then me and are more fucked up then me.
Anyway moral of my rambling is this. The documentary sucks donkey cocks.
Also the reason why you are being bullied is because you are asking why you are getting bullied.
Dont forgive your bullies. Or forgive them its your lifes choice. But it does feel good to tell them to fuck off and get revenge on them (whether non violent or not). I never got any violent revenge on them unfortunately. But its probably better off that way cuz I dont want any jail time or any legal problems.
Search my blog on the story where I told this guy to fuck his mother LOL. I feel excellant about that.
