Ive been googling certain things lately and came across these 2 vocabulary words. I don't really think I am an introvert. But I am not an extrovert.
I hate when people put me on the spot and ask me why I am not talking. I hate being in the spot light. I get sweaty and nervous it fucking sucks. I will start hating people who do that to me too. Especially if it is a repeat offender. One guy when I was in school years ago kept on doing it to me. Any time he would ask me why Im not talking etc. I would tell him the truth that I hated him and I thought he was boring. I would curse at him. This fucking loser thought that I was joking. But I was serious I didnt like him at all.
Last couple years of my life I try to avoid conversations with boring people. If I see one of these boring people in the street I will try to cross to avoid talking to them or turn around and walk the other way. When I was in college this girl who rejected me kept following me around with her bf to try and friend zone me. I walked about a half a mile out of my way in the wrong direction to go home and I still ended up bumping into her (lol).
What constitutes a boring person in my eyes. Someone who comes up to me and pulls me out of my deep thoughts and tries to talk to me about stuff I am not interested in. Such as their kids or work or stuff from school (I finished school long ago but this is one of things that made me develop into who I am). Someone who keeps making unfunny jokes especially those that are at my expense. A girl who tries to put me in the friend zone. Someone who just has to have a conversation with you instead of just letting it be silent. Someone who keeps making the same unfunny joke over and over. Basically an Extrovert. I hate extroverts. I dont understand why people cant say hello and move on.
There is a concept from curb your enthusiasm called stop and chat. Larry David hates the stop and chat and so do I.
Back to the guy I cursed out about 10 times who thought I was joking. He finally realized that I hated him on the day when I was talking to someone else about something and he randomly butted into the coversation told me I was a lazy piece of shit and that he was going to smack me in the face. Well I cursed him out for the 11th or 12th time and I told him to mind his fucking business and I told him to go fuck his mother. I was prepared to bring in any of his family members (alive or dead) just to disrespect him and I was ready to fight him. I yelled this in front of the whole class including the teacher. Nobody stood up for him. Nobody told me what I said was out of line (which it was). And the teacher didnt ask me to leave or even mention it to me later at all (Lol). He was basically the class clown in a class where everyone was too old for the nonsense and he had worn out everyone's patience. He clammed up quick and was very upset with me. But nothing ever came out of it. Funny thing after this is other people yelled at him in the following weeks for insulting them. He finally stopped talking for the rest of the semester after the third person yelled at him.
The reason I did this was because this type of behavior is so annoying that I would rather get punched in the face then listen these people and their crap conversations. This event is why I dont think I am introverted but I feel for the true introverts.
Honestly if you are the type that hates to be the center of attention and people throw you into the spot light when you dont want to be there. Let them know that its not ok. Stand up for yourself. I feel that it is a form of harrassment. The reason why I think that being thrown into the spotlight against your will is harrassment is because you dont like it and you dont want to be there. Why should you allow someone to do something you dont like to you? If you dont have the backbone developed to speak up for yourself take an MMA class or something. But you will have to develop your backbone because in order to live the life that you want from time to time you will have to be ready to fend off enemy attacks. That is my opinion. With that guy whos mother I insulted after I yelled at him. Other people voiced their displeasure with him in the following days. By me standing up for myself I knocked him down a peg. What these types of assholes do is bring you down so that they can look like the big shot in front of everyone. That is why you will have to be prepared to defend yourself. Dont be cannon fodder for some douchebag loser trying to get one over on you.
I got all sorts of stories like that mother fucker guy and the girl with the bf.
Last story. I diet hard and eat healthy. Once a kid threw me a piece of candy. I couldnt eat it because I was trying to stick to my diet and I couldnt afford the calories. He got upset and started asking me questions about the way I live my diet life. I was tired and didnt feel like explaining myself. I told him outright that I didnt care it and I didnt want to have a conversation. He either didnt understand or thought that I was joking because he kept on trying to talk to me. So then I asked him to let me out. He defintatley didnt get that cuz he asked me "let you out of what?" and I told that I wanted to be let out of the conversation. If he kept on I was prepared to offer him at least $1 to get out of the conversation. But he let me out other then a hello here and there we never spoke again. This ended more amicably. If he hated me or was mad at me it he was to scared or just didnt want to resort to violence over it.
Look I am not going to sit here and say that my way is right. But being in these kinds of conversations is pure torture to me. I understand that its not going to win me any friends or get me any girls. But I will say what I have to say to live my life in an enjoyable way. To hell with manners. Just tell the truth. Do you really want to be friends with boring people ??
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