non violently pissing off bullies/tormentors (storytime!)

 People will try to torment no matter what age you are. No matter where you are in life.  Whether you are school or close to being 40 years old.   Stop asking why they do what they do and learn to stand up for yourself.  There is no valid excuse for anyone to be tormented.  And making a mistake in your life is not grounds for someone else to crucify you for it.  Always remember that one day the guy that is hassling you for the mistake that you made will make a mistake himself.  Then lets see how he likes hearing endless bullshit about it. 

What I just said is pretty generic and kind of out of context.  I understand what I wrote in the paragraph above cuz I live it but who knows if someone else will. If you stumble upon this searching for answers on what to do about people bullying you or why they are bullying you then Idk what to tell you other then return whatever they give you tenfold.  Even if it makes you look crazy.  Even if it makes you an outcast.  Or just live with being a joke in your group "Friends"  its your choice. 

Anyway Im at work and I needed to borrow something from a co-worker and he made some lame ass joke so I made one back to him.  He said my joke was weird and tries to develop a nickname for me.  The entire work group starts making fun of me and calling me this nickname.  Anyway in the beginning it was ok but these cocksuckers wouldnt drop it.  I guess they think Im their friend or they like me.  But in all honestly repeatedly telling me the same joke and boring small talk just straight up sucks.  And I dont like it.  

The next day I show up to work a few minutes early and everyone is already there sitting around in a big circle outside smoking cigarettes. First of all I think cigs smells horrible and it kind of makes me feel sick so I already dont want to be around these people.  Second of all I want to go inside and sit down.  So I bypass them one of the people turned to me and said hello normally to me and I mumbled it back.  No one else in the group heard but the guy who gave me my unwanted nickname started yelling it.  I didnt reply or look his direction.

I didnt reply or look his direction for many reasons.  Here is the list why:

1.Its early morning

2.  I am tired.

3. I dont feel like talking at that particular moment

4.  The unwanted nickname is not my name and I will not reply to it

For some reason the entire group got offended.  And the guy came up to me later asking me "what the fuck?"  and I proceeded to tell him that I mumbled hello to that one guy and that counted for the entire group.  Then I laughed because I thought what I did was hysterical.  I doubt the reader thinks so but whatever.  Anyway he was telling me how he was offended and he didnt want to work with me.  And then I told him to tell our supervisor to switch him or me to a different work group.  Nothing really was resolved and it wasnt an escalating confrontation.  He actually ended up going home sick 2 hours later so that also probably helped it not escalating.  

Then I went home and thought about it.  And I didnt say this at the time cuz I was kind of on the spot and didnt think about it.  I didnt want to be in that group that makes me be the joke of the group.  Fuck those people altogether.  I regret not telling this guy to go fuck himself.  Cuz I was right.  And I will do it again.  Especially with these particular people.  This guy didnt come back to work for 2 days and our project got completed.  For some odd reason my unwanted nickname disappeared (temporarily most likely) and everyone started being  oddly nice to me.  Weird how this happened even though there were no angry confrontations or beyond involved.   I am wary of these people.  

Even though these people were starting to be nice.  On my last day I took the long way to work instead where they wouldnt even see me enter the building and I got there 5 minutes before everyone else. 

I got moved to a new project because of completion and it is at a different office so for now I wont have to deal with people from that group.  But the next time I hear that nickname the person calls me it will hear an earfull of nastiness back including mentioning of dead family members etc.  And I will be ready to escalate to a fight.  I dont care about being fired Im not letting any cocksucker push me around.  If I get crowned rude then so be it. 

 But that morning my thought process was Im not their dog and I dont come running to their beck and call to be insulted.

The problem with friendships and dating in the United States

 To build off my extrovert vs introvert post.  I hate when friends insult you and that it is a tolerated part of the friendship. 

Ive never liked it my entire life. I just let it go so that I would I actually have friends. Ive been apart of many groups of friends.  I had one group in elementary/junior high.  I was in another group in high school.  And I was in a third group in college.  All these people were backstabbing pieces of shit.  We would always make fun of each other.  But they would always do it in front of girls etc.  Towards the end of college I was fed up this.  I got tired of never getting girls cuz someone made fun of me.

Girls are stupid for the most part.  They dont think for themselves.  They go with the general consensus regardless if its right or wrong.  A lot of them dont even think about either choice they just go with the majority rule.  So if  a group of guys is making fun of someone they will join the group against them.  If one girl rejects you she will poison other girls against you as well.  This is my experience/opinion. 

I dont like making friends anymore.  I am in my 30s and I am just fed up with all the games.  People try to put you down in front of other people to make themselves look good.  I am not quick with the comebacks either so I will just insult the guy back.  I will bring in their sister dying of cancer if I have to get back at them.  If you don't want to be insulted dont fuck with me.  Otherwise I will get nasty.  

Idk what the problem with dating is.  I never understood why girls will just ignore your text to reject you.  It takes 2 seconds to answer.  Say "no" or say "Im busy".  Everyone knows girls look at their phones 24/7.  Anyway if a girl ignores my text I will delete the number and never speak to her again.  As far I am concerned the ball is in her court.  If I see her I will not even  come up to her.  And if she says something to me I will try to end the conversation quickly.  You ignore me I ignore you back. 

 I am not a casanova by a long shot.  I stopped asking out girls and trying to make friends cuz honestly it was making me miserable for the aforementioned reasons.  I would like to get married and have kids but it is really not my decision to make its hers.  In the mean time I am pretty happy doing my hobbies.  

On another matter I never understood why people ignore texts.  Just say you are not interested or have other things going on.  Maybe the world would be a better place if people were more truthful.  

Some girl came up to me and we were talking.  She was very good looking.  I would never go up to her myself cuz she was too good looking and I didnt think I would have a shot.  Anway I guess she thought was funny cuz she kept on grabbing my arm and laughing. Then she asked me for my number.  In my head I was thinking no way  I cant believe this.  We exchanged numbers.  So guess what happened?  I texted her and she ignores my text.  Wtf?  I was crushed.  Even though I dont like my texts being ignored I understand that is the risk I take in asking for it.  But this time I didnt ask she asked me.  Come on.   I saw her again 3 months later.  I saw her she didnt see and I went to the other side of the room cuz I wanted no part of her conversation cuz I felt like shit as soon as I saw her.  She looked hot that day too.  But I stayed away.  She noticed me 45 minutes later.  I heard her talking shit to her friends about how I didnt say hello to her.  

Idk Ive been in the situation many times before that day and Ive gone up to the girl and gotten nothing and felt foolish and wished that I had done nothing.  So that time I said fuck it I am keeping out of it and let her come to me.  Of course that gets me nothing as well lol.  With girls all the answer choices seem to be wrong.  If I ask them out they say no.  If I dont ask them out I still dont get the date.  Go figure. 

Extroverts vs introverts

 Ive been googling certain things lately and came across these 2 vocabulary words.  I don't really think I am an introvert.  But I am not an extrovert. 

I hate when people put me on the spot and ask me why I am not talking.  I hate being in the spot light.  I get sweaty and nervous it fucking sucks.  I will start hating people who do that to me too.  Especially if it is a repeat offender.  One guy when I was in school years ago kept on doing it to me.  Any time he would ask me why Im not talking etc. I would tell him the truth that I hated him and I thought he was boring.  I would curse at him.  This fucking loser thought that I was joking. But I was serious I didnt like him at all.  

 Last couple years of my life I try to avoid conversations with boring people.  If I see one of these boring people in the street I will try to cross to avoid talking to them or turn around and walk the other way.  When I was in college this girl who rejected me kept following me around with her bf to try and friend zone me.  I walked about a half a mile out of my way in the wrong direction to go home and I still ended up bumping into her (lol).  

What constitutes a boring person in my eyes.  Someone who comes up to me and pulls me out of my deep thoughts and tries to talk to me about stuff I am not interested in.  Such as their kids or work or stuff from school (I finished school long ago but this is one of things that made me develop into who I am).  Someone who keeps making unfunny jokes especially those that are at my expense.  A girl who tries to put me in the friend zone.  Someone who just has to have a conversation with you instead of just letting it be silent.  Someone who keeps making the same unfunny joke over and over.    Basically an Extrovert.  I hate extroverts.  I dont understand why people cant say hello and move on.  

There is a concept from curb your enthusiasm called stop and chat.  Larry David hates the stop and chat and so do I. 

Back to the guy I cursed out about 10 times who thought I was joking.  He finally realized that I hated him on the day when I was talking to someone else about something and he randomly butted into the coversation told me I was a lazy piece of shit and that he was going to smack me in the face.  Well I cursed him out for the 11th or 12th time and I told him to mind his fucking business and I told him to go fuck his mother.  I was prepared to bring in any of his family members (alive or dead) just to disrespect him and I was ready to fight him.  I yelled this in front of the whole class including the teacher.  Nobody stood up for him.  Nobody told me what I said was out of line (which it was).  And the teacher didnt ask me to leave or even mention it to me later at all (Lol).  He was basically the class clown in a class where everyone was too old for the nonsense and he had worn out everyone's patience.  He clammed up quick and was very upset with me.  But nothing ever came out of it.  Funny thing after this is other people yelled at him in the following weeks for insulting them.  He finally stopped talking for the rest of the semester after the third person yelled at him. 

The reason I did this was because this type of behavior is so annoying that I would rather get punched in the face then listen these people and their crap conversations.  This event is why I dont think I am introverted but I feel for the true introverts. 

Honestly if you are the type that hates to be the center of attention and people throw you into the spot light when you dont want to be there.  Let them know that its not ok.  Stand up for yourself.  I feel that it is a form of harrassment.  The reason why I think that being thrown into the spotlight against your will is harrassment is because you dont like it and you dont want to be there.  Why should you allow someone to do something you dont like to you?  If you dont have the backbone developed to speak up for yourself take an MMA class or something.  But you will have to develop your backbone because in order to live the life that you want from time to time you will have to be ready to fend off enemy attacks.  That is my opinion.  With that guy whos mother I insulted after I yelled at him.  Other people voiced their displeasure with him in the following days.  By me standing up for myself I knocked him down a peg.  What these types of assholes do is bring you down so that they can look like the big shot in front of everyone.  That is why you will have to be prepared to defend yourself.  Dont be cannon fodder for some douchebag loser trying to get one over on you. 

I got all sorts of stories like that mother fucker guy and the girl with the bf.  

Last story.  I diet hard and eat healthy.  Once a kid threw me a piece of candy.  I couldnt eat it because I was trying to stick to my diet and I couldnt afford the calories.  He got upset and started asking me questions about the way I live my diet life.  I was tired and didnt feel like explaining myself.  I told him outright that I didnt care it and I didnt want to have a conversation.  He either didnt understand or thought that  I was joking because he kept on trying to talk to me.  So then I asked him to let me out.  He defintatley didnt get that cuz he asked me "let you out of what?"  and I told that I wanted to be let out of the conversation.  If he kept on I was prepared to offer him at least $1 to get out of the conversation.  But he let me out other then a hello here and there we never spoke again.  This ended more amicably.  If he hated me or was mad at me it he was to scared or just didnt want to resort to violence over it.  

Look I am not going to sit here and say that my way is right.  But being in these kinds of conversations is pure torture to me.  I understand that its not going to win me any friends or get me any girls.  But I will say what I have to say to live my life in an enjoyable way.  To hell with manners.  Just tell the truth.  Do you really want to be friends with boring people ??

Random thoughts and observations

 Sometimes I google things that I think and the only search results I get are the opposite of what I am looking for.  

Whenever this happens I am going to publish what I am thinking in case someone else is looking for the same thing.  

This blog is now going to have random thoughts of mine in it too.  I had all sorts of reviews planned out but I moved into a new apartment and things got crazy in my life so I had to take a break from this and other projects I was working on.